The nights get colder and colder. My heart doesn't race as much but there it lays, away from my chest but the presence remains in my heart. I'm not asking for much, just a little closure. It's harder than it seems, to try and forget someone or to ignore the way that they treat you. Sometimes I wonder, if I'm strong enough. Most of the time I think about two people getting to know each other, in my stories they always fall in love. So deeply in love, that other can't stand the sight of it because it drives them mad with rage.
When is it going to be my turn to fall in love, when is it going to be my turn to say "I love you." when is it going to be my turn to say, "I know you." These feelings aren't real for me. This saddens me, because I don't understand how to establish a real connection with another individual. Maybe if I could start over from my first realtionship I could have the chance to turn the wrongs into rights. I'm sure that a few of people want to go back and fix the choices that they made.
Others...however believe that everything happens for a reason.
The smile might be tiny but it 'll get bigger with time and good books. I'm glad that I look at life the way I do right now. It'll get even better wth time.
-N
No comments:
Post a Comment