He's not religious, and I'm glad that he's not because he makes me really think about the things that I want out of my life. Today I felt really good because I haven't talked to him in a very long time. I'm giving up on chasing this guy and I'm going to look forward to my future because for all I know Mr. Perfect for me could be right in front of me and I wouldn't even know.
R. is awesome !! Whenever I talk with him I always feel better ! This is the first time that I've felt really good overall. I want to chant for his deepest happiness. Listening to Anberlin right now, and I never felt better. I also thinks it's time that I let go of what's been holding me back. Time to let go of all the hurt and pain that was placed upon my heart and soul. I really do miss my mother so much ! I can't wait to give her a big huge hug. I want things to be better between my family and me. Going home is extremely scary because all they do is yell and shout. There are times when I really hate being at home because of our issues.
Another Anberlin song to make my day once more. Day late Friend and before that was Paperthin Hymn. Is it to much to really want just a little bit of time to myself. I can't wait to get home!!! So that I can chant my ASS off, doing it here at school is more that hard it's difficult. I'm always jumping around when I write xD but now that I'm in the mood I'm going to write a poem just for Aya( A.K.A. My violin)
The strings shine and glimmer with a sparkle.
The weight of my bow pulling down on the strings, pulls out a sound that resonates in my ringing ears.
The wood of my instrument is not only of a bright orange but in my mind the color of red.
The fingerboard may have been worn our and even though it's starting to chip. It surely has gotten old.
The notes of my choosing rings out and sticks.
My eyes light up and passion sits.
This is my sweet loving Violin.
-N'Yasha
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